I’m taking part in Stratejoy’s “Put Yourself Out There” discussion group. It’s pretty much fantastic… and we have challenges each week. This week, I had to write myself a love letter. I would love to say that I revised and cleaned this up, but I like the idea of leaving it as it is, as a stream of consciousness exercise.
I love you. I love the sensitivity you show the universe.
I love that you feel joy at animals and babies–and the smile that crosses your face.
I love that you value the relationships you have with your family.
I love that you love both men and women openly.
I love your relationship with the Church and the Lord–and the struggle you went through to get to this point.
I love that you revere the priesthood and religious life.
I love the responsibility you are taking for your disease and managing your health and medication.
I love that you finished your degree-and did it in spite of your trauma and decision to leave campus.
I love that you took a chance and went to Vail and then to Europe–and from those places, learned to let go and lean on people.
I love that you admitted your brokenness and suicidality to your mother.
I love that you made the commitment to taking suicide off that table–and the challenge you took on of really living your life, rather than just waiting for the end.